Lots To Learn

Making changes in your life comes with a lot of opportunities to learn.  And the numbers and variety of things that you learn is amazing sometimes.  I was beginning to feel at one point that I was having to learn so many things in such a short period of time that my head was going to explode.  But I am happy to say that it didn't and now the learning has slowed up a bit and is coming at me in a much more manageable pace.  Oh, I am still learning a lot and am doing it constantly, but it is no longer feeling like I may drown in the effort to keep up with it all.

So what am I having to learn.  Well the biggest thing is not to worry and to believe in myself and what the future can hold.  I am infamous for saying the most negative thing that I can about my situation and, well to be quite honest, that has gotten me nowhere.  I have always fancied myself to be one who can tell you what he future has to hold.  Well that is not true.  I don't know what is going to happen in five minutes, the next hour, tomorrow or next week.  And I know this because I have been very surprised by some of the events that have occurred in my life when I was least expecting them, such as meeting the love of my life.  If you had told me that day what was going to happen in it, I would have called you crazy.  But I tell you what, it did happen and I am so grateful that I was open to the experience.


I have also been learning many other more practical lessons lately, like how to set up a web site and business.  How to make something beautiful, like a piece of jewelry and how to care for animals in need, I went to school to become a veterinary assistant last year.  I really feel like my brain has probably doubled in size and am glad that my actual head hasn't, that might look funny.  I am still learning in many of these areas and an having a great time doing it.  Fortunately, most of the learning I am going through right now doesn't include any tests or term papers, my least favorite parts of school.  So I say bring it on world, teach me all you have and all you want.  I want to know it.  And I just hope you can teach me not to be afraid of not knowing something and how to do it anyway and I will learn in the process of doing.

How much is too much? And how much is not enough?

Tell me if this sound familiar to you.  Have you ever noticed that when you are making things, like jewelry, you are conservative in using beads and crystals and just the stuff in general needed to make whatever it is that you are making.  Maybe it’s just me, but I am always afraid to use my stuff because what if I want to use it later for something else.  Maybe I’m just crazy, but this seems to be a battle I have every time I sit down to make jewelry, or bake cookies, or make any sort of thing.  Let me just say, I have to have an ample supply of whatever it is I need to create to feel like I can create, so I always seem to have extra of most things on hand and then I am afraid to use it because I might want to use it later.  This does lead to storage and space issues which I am always battling.  So I have come up with a new resolution.  I HAVE TO USE WHAT I HAVE.  I understand, intellectually anyway, that there is more out there to be gotten and that because I run out of something doesn't mean that I can't get it again.  I guess I just don't seem to craft and create from a very intellectual place.  While in some ways this is probably good since creation is an emotional process, that emotionality might be better served tempered with some intellectuality.  Thus my new rule.  We will see how this goes.  I will keep you posted.